For the sake of maintaining my 'anonymity', I'll tell you that my name is "Nicole", and I created this blog because at one point in my life (in the not so distant past), I was unemployed for about 9 months, and as a result of my joblessness, I fell behind on my rent. I was on the edge of eviction, as my bank account sat with a whopping balance of -$14.95. I'd been single for almost 4 years when the man that I'd just started seeing told me that he still had 'feelings' for his ex girlfriend, so I stopped seeing him. All of the upheaval to my life brought on a depression that I'd never felt before, but I made a huge effort to keep in mind, the fact that there were people who were in much worse shape than I was, physically, financially and emotionally.
Only one member of my family knew the true extent of my situation, but everyone else was completely in the dark (hence the reason for the anonymity). I put on a happy face for everyone, but inside I was completely broken. I was crying sporadically every day, feeling as though I needed to 'wring out' my soul. The feeling of hopelessness was all encompassing, and there were brief moments, when I actually wondered what it would be like not to be here. But that's all those were; brief moments. I kept reminding myself that my situation was temporary.
The one person who knew 'my shit' asked me one day, "In a perfect world, what do you want to be?" Without skipping a beat, I replied "Healthy, happy and truth be told, I wanna be rich too. I'm sick of being broke." That's it.
I'm a very spiritual individual, believing with my whole heart that if I just kept 'looking up', things would quickly get better, but there were days when discouragement and depression set in. Then there was the anxiety that accompanied the whole mess.
I started this blog in order to keep my mind on the GOOD things, and to remind others in my situation to do the same.
"Healthy, Happy and Rich."
xo